Holding on
I always took the saying “You can’t have everything” as a materialistic statement but have recently digested how this equally applies to relationships and goals.
I want to learn guitar.
I want to become fluent in Chinese.
I want to keep in touch with all my friends.
I want to have deep relationships with everyone I love.
I want to be closer to my family everyday.
Life has ultimately become a game where I choose what I want to flourish and what I decide to let die. I feel lucky to have choices like these but it’s disheartening that I can’t have it all.
It also frustrates me that some things aren’t a conscious choice, but it still impacts the way life unfolds. Forgetting to call home, to ask a friend to hang out, to make time for passions. I feel a bit lost in the shuffle of life. I don’t mean to make anyone feel unimportant, but it happens.
The inability to hold onto everything has been a tough reality. Perhaps the toughest part is that it’s making me face up to the world and define myself by my actions. How you spend your time should align with what you think is important. I need to start working towards that more.
Taking a look at what I’ve done in the past month, year, decade… I’m not sure if I’m happy with my legacy so far. Not sure what to say, other than it’s time to roll-up my sleeves and just get things done.
